after 2 years (^_=)

my dear nz(yes daddy and ibu had already choose a name for u)....it takes a while for me before i made up my mind to write this....feel like to share it here....Daddy and ibu had waited for u for such a long time (well 2 years was longgggg enough for us). There were ups and downs in our marriage....at first, ibu don't mind of what people say when ibu still not conceive in the first year of marriage but entering second year of marriage life's getting tougher.... Kemana saje ibu & daddy pergi.....kenduri kahwin, doa selamat, balik kampung....orang akan bertanya...bila lagi?? Kalaulah ibu ada jawapan pada setiap soalan merekakan sayang....Ibu jadi kuat sebab daddy awak sangat kuat orangnya.....daddy yang selalu bagi sokongan pada ibu selain kwn2 ibu,nenek2,atuk2, aunties, uncles awak....banyak yang mereka sama2 usahakan untuk ibu cepat2 mengandung...(^_^)....doa tak pernah jemu ibu panjatkan untuk memiliki awak....kadang-kadang ibu kalah dengan perasaan ibu sendiri tapi ibu sentiasa percaya the times will arrive....sooner or later...all i have to do is wait verrrrryyyyy patiently....kerana terlampau menginginkan awak ibu pernah menangis setiap kali lalu di baby's department...haishhhh i'm too weak... :( but ur daddy will always be there to lend his shoulder (",)...your daddy is one tough and loving husband.... Anniversary daddy & ibu is on 18th December 2009......So on 18th December 2011 masuk tahun kedua which we can't celebrate together as we did on our first year....sedih sangat sampai ibu nangis2 tak tahu kenapa....daddy terpaksa balik kampung ada kenduri and ibu kena teman tok mama awak untuk pergi kenduri lain esoknya....rupa2nya emosional melampau tu disebabkan ada janin yang sedang berkembang dalam rahim ibu (",) tapi ibu tak tahu lagi masa tu...n nak dijadikan cerita my period delayed...:) jeng jeng jeng.....b4 this kalau delay seminggu tu x heran la sebab selalu sangat dah delay acah-acah ni huhuhuhu(walaupun sebenarnya ibu sangat mengharapkan sesuatu....mengharapkan awak ada dalam rahim ibu ;( )tapi this time around instinct keibuan yang tinggi ni...ewwahhhh konon kan....baru delay tiga hari perasaan membuak2 nak buat urine test using upt(urine pregnancy test) kit sangat membuak2 :)n for ur further info (when u can read & understand this) for the first seven months of our marriage ibu & daddy akan beli a few boxes of upt for each month dengan harapan it'll shows double line but.... ;( We stop buying upt kit and we try another option....we undergo few tests to check whether we have any problems and Alhamdulillah we are fine...n from that we believe it just a matter of time...we never stop trying....NEVERR....ibu will definitely tells u a whole story when u big enough to understand...i promise u'll love it to bits :) can't wait for the moment to arrive :).....and back to december 2011 after 3 days delayed ibu x sabar2 nak buat urine test...daddy n ibu went to clinic to run the test there but sadly the dr said it's another negative ;( huwaaaaaa butttttt sebelum ibu n daddy balik staf klinik ni terjerit cakap kat dr...dr..dr ni ade double line tapi the test line was samar2....the dr still said it's -ve...so xpela....tapi ibu mcm in denial mode mase tu...hehehehe yakin neh....so esok pagi2 subuh sepiie(bak kate org n9) ibu buat lagi urine test kat rumah :) yessss yesss yessss it's a double CLEAR linesssssssss (^__________-) sujud syukur kami pada Allah sayang can't really describe our feelings.....MAHA BESAR ALLAH yang menjadikan SEGALA sesuatu....hahahahahahahahahahahahaha ibu dah jadi obsessed dengan upt kit after that dari upt kit yang biase sampaila ke digital upt kit(ade lebih kurang 20s upt kit) ibu and ofkos hehe daddy yang belikan untuk buat setiap hari and it last for two weeks sayang...two weeks....how excited we are...sebenarnya macam x percaya pun ade....:) And from the moment onwards awak membesar dengan sihat...Alhamdulillah..... after upt addiction now dah bertukar kepada scanning "u" addiction....for the first three months ibu and daddy will "meet" u every single week without fail!!! it's out of our control hahahahaha...we loveeeeeeee u BIGGG (",)...ur punches...ur kicks...ur hiccups..are the sweetest things ever happened in my womb :) ibu miss ur karate-moves inside...rili (^_-) Niyaz Zikry, as u are always by my side 24/7 for this 4 months time ibu will definitely miss u when i've to start working next year....ibu & daddy sentiasa doakan niyaz menjadi anak yang soleh..pintar..cergas...dikurniakan suara yang merdu agar dapat mengalunkan ayat-ayat suci Al-Quran...menjadi imam untuk ibu & daddy (bila tiba masanya)...menjadi contoh yg baik untuk adik2(ewwahhh pun bila tiba masanya heeeee)....disamping menjadi khalifah Allah yang berguna untuk Agama Bangsa & Negara :)....Ibu will continue writing bout "us" (daddy..ibu & u for the time being) and this is my "nazar" post :)....Semoga semua yang telah daddy & ibu rancangkan untuk niyaz dipermudahkan urusannya oleh Allah S.W.T :) sesunggunya kita hanya merancang & DIA MAHA PENENTU SEGALA SESUATU.......I love u with all my heart and when u can read this the emotions will remains as it is FOREVER... L.O.V.E

(",)

ibu and daddy love u soo much little caliph (^_=)

quality time

having u inside is such a wonderful experience...x.o.x.o

priceless

Stay strong sayang

Alhamdulillah~~~~

Now u are my alarm in the morning (^_=)